From fake tan FAN to
Fake Tan BAN
- WARNING! THIS POST CONTAINS SOME SINFUL, DISGUSTING AND DAMN RIGHT SHOCKING IMAGES!-
- Anybody who knows me personally, who watches me on YouTube or reads this blog, will already be extremely aware that I LOVE sporting fake tan to produce an olivey, sunkissed skintone.
In comparison to my natural, milky / bluey white skin, the 'latino look' was always going to be a winner. Fake tan is a completely safe way of tanning aside using the sunbeds which for somebody as naturally as pale as me is always going to be a no no.
With my naturally almost black hair and greeny eyes, although completely freckle-less, I have that reflective white skin tone that barely tans on holiday, I come home two weeks later as white as I did when I left. Either that, or burnt to a crisp and bright red. In all honesty I put my skin through hell when I go on holiday just so I can endeavor to be a Mediterranean princess.
I have been using fake tan religiously for about a year now however, in recent months it has started to take over my life.
seriously it has.
You guys know that I am an avid 'St Moriz' user. Although it is very drying on the skin, I love the colour, I love the application, more importantly I love the price.
Most 'normal' people apply fake tan, once a week, every couple of days or only if they are going out.
In recent weeks it has gotten to the point whereby I am applying it four/five times a day EVERYDAY, 7 days a week to achieve the 'Kim Kardashian-esc' skintone. Oblivious as I was, this was NOT the case.
Instead my family were in despair about the fact I looked 'dirty' because I never had time between the 5 or 6 applications to let it develop ready to be washed off. My dad especially was annoyed that the door handles would be smeared with an orangey residue, the bathroom towels and my cream bedding were bright orange, and it had soaked in all over the bathroom PARTICULAR the white loo seat!!!
My obsession was that ridiculous, I would get annoyed if one of my friends asked me to go somewhere and I hadn't fake tanned. I didn't feel my best if I wasn't tanned. I felt unconfident pale and I had to be glowing what I thought was olive, rather it was orange in order to feel confident. Weirdly, I felt older the more tanned I was
I looked at myself in the mirror whilst lathering on another smearing of St Moriz and I realized that I no longer looked 'sunkissed' and natural I looked MINGING. Although I always carry out the relgious routine of;
I looked down at my feet. *yes all feet are disgusting ESPECIALLY mine ;) I wouldn't normally show you then but for the purpose of the post it adds to dramatic efftec ;) *
I looked at my wrists.
I looked at my arms.
and what really scared me was when I had gotten out of the bath..... *screaach*
Not attractive in the slightest! I knew that this was a ridiculous vicious circle I had gotten into. I didn't need to look so orange and mingy!
It was time to re-evaluate!
As difficult it is to a tanning junkie like myself, I have now decided that I will only St Moriz ONCE a week. In the mean time I will use a gradual tanning moisturiser. (Yes I am totally willing to smell like a wet biscuit.)
I have chosen two that I have previously used and already know that I love.
The first is Palmers, Cocoa butter 'natural bronze' (smells lush!)
The second is Garnier 'Summerbody' which smells all fruity. :) - I know some people on Twitter have complained that this gradual tanner brings them out in an itchy rash, for me, this has never happened so I will continue to use it anyway.
So it's cheers to a new outlook on fake tanning! I hope I never go back to my desperate ways! I'm not a natural latino, but I look even less like one as an orange 'Wotsit'
I hope I start to get my skintone confidence back as I can't change it. There is absolutely no point hammering the UVB AND UVA rays or spending hundreds of pounds on various fake tans. I might aswell just embrace the fact I am naturally pale and to look sunkissed doesn't mean I have to be BRIGHT ORANGE.
Love, Holl xo