THE LIFESTYLE CHRONICLE: OCD AND ME

my ocd story


- A programme that I watched a few weeks ago on itv spurred me on to write this post, although I have wanted to write it for some time.

OCD is something that many of us have heard of 
the phrase: Oh you're so OCD gets thrown around a fair bit.

Something that you may not know about me is that I suffer from obsessive compulsive disorder and have done for around 13 years now and whilst I don't have it to the point where it fully takes over my life it does make situations quite difficult for me from time to time.

OCD is an anxiety disorder that is influenced by thoughts that cause uneasiness, fear and apprehension and in turn the sufferer feels that they have to eradicate these feelings by completing repetative behaviour.

I have suffered many waves of OCD but predominantly I carry out certain behaviours because if I don't, something bad will happen.

When I was seven years old I went through a phase of having to making a clicking noise with my tongue three times or something bad would happen.

This carried on for a while and then my 'thing' turned to multiplying everything by five, touching everything I saw and missing one step on the stairs.

After a while, I never had anything strange happen again for years.
Of course, I had my little quirks but nothing that got annoying.

It was only until recently that my OCD has started to become quite intrusive again.
I think it has been sparked by the anxiety surrounding the death of grandparents.

I have started thinking that if I don't do certain things, something bad will happen to more of my family members.

Ofcourse, I know that it is all in my head but I do worry sometimes that my OCD is getting a little out of control.

Plug sockets are becomming a bit of an issue, I am constantly checking that plug sockets are turned off incase the plug starts a fire.
I always make sure I say I love you to my nearest and dearest to the point where it is becomming obsessive, I can't not say it or yes, you guessed it, something bad will happen.

Anxiety is such a deliberating issue and it really can eat away at you.
I just try to tell myself that if something bad is going to happen then it's out of my control anyway and by doing crazy rituals the outcome won't change.

Do you know anybody who suffers from OCD?
hollie x
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